So tonight I was going through my phone book looking for people to hang out with and I realized how many people I hadn’t talked to in months.

I’m not even talking about the highschool people, but the college people. There are people on my list I used to hang out with EVERY day in the dorms. Since I moved out, I feel like these people have either disappeared or just stopped being social.

Then I started to wonder if they think the same way about me. When I first moved into the dorm, I was overwhelmed by all the new friends who lived right down the hall from me. During highschool, I was about 40 minutes away from my friends, so I never really saw them outside of class. I was so happy to be able to walk 3 minutes to hang out with my friends in the LLC.

Now that I’ve moved out, I feel like I pulled away from the party scene, and I wonder if everyone else has too. Its not that I don’t enjoy a good party, its that I just dont enjoy it as much. Its almost a “been there, done that” sort of deal and I don’t know if I should be feeling that way at 21 years old. When I look back on life though, I wonder if I’ve had that sort of feeling the whole time. Activities seem old to me quickly, I haven’t figured out why but it bothers me.

I guess I should just grow some balls and call the people I haven’t seen.